“The further you can get away from yourself, the more challenging it is. Not to be in your comfort zone is great fun.”
– Benedict Cumberbatch, actor
Well, here it is. My last official blog entry before I become a half-marathoner. Originally, I planned for yesterday’s post to be the last. But I decided I had just a little bit more to say. I know….shocking.
I saw the above quote and it really made me think. First of all, the quote is by an actor. I’m an actor too, so I really identify with it. Each and every time I step foot out onto a stage, I am terrified. It’s true. I’ve been acting for as long as I can remember, but still…it happens every single time. And yet I keep going back for more. Why?
This is why:
I step out of my comfort zone and on to the magic of the stage. And I’m transformed. Before I know it, the fear is gone, and I become whomever I’m supposed to become for those two hours under the spotlights.
And now, this weekend, it’s time to do that again.
Tonight will be the first forage out of my comfort zone. I’m singing in public for only the second time in my life, aside from musicals. Musicals are different though. I’m someone else when I’m singing in a show. But in front of that little microphone on that little stage in our local restaurant/bar, I’m just Melissa. And let me tell ya – that is SCARY. The first time I did this, I was terrified. (I may have even fumbled a word or two but don’t tell anybody…) But I did it. And it didn’t suck too bad, I don’t think. Tonight, I’m ready to do it again. And you know what’s funny?
I’m not really all that scared this time.
Why is that? Well, I guess it’s because I’ve already faced that demon. I faced it, conquered it, and now I know it’s no big deal. Now I’m ready to get up there beside the man I love and make some music with him. It’s worth the nerves because it makes me happy. It makes my heart happy.
I know now what it feels like outside of the comfort zone when it comes to singing there. I know the joy that comes from walking away from that microphone after having done something that I thought I couldn’t do. I know the pride that comes from overcoming fear and just throwing caution to the wind in order to just go for it.
Which brings me to tomorrow. I’m ready to feel all of that all over again. Only this time, my “stage” will be a 13.1-mile running course.
I’ve never run a half marathon before. I’m scared. It’s outside of my comfort zone, for sure. But just like overcoming the fear to sing, I’ll overcome this fear as well. And I’m going to have fun. And I’m going to love it. And I’m going to be proud.
Just like stepping onto the stage in theatre, it’s time to step across that starting line of fear. For a few hours (hopefully not too many!), I’ll again be transformed. I’ll take that leap out of my comfort zone into new and unchartered territory.
Time to step into the role of a half-marathon runner.
Time for some magic.
“Magic is believing in yourself.
If you can do that, you can make anything happen.”
– Johann Wolfgang von Goethe